My Facebook memories popped up today. It was a reminder of what I have been trying to avoid talking about. It’s the reason my testimony page AND video have disappeared “all of a sudden.” It’s why I took a break from social media, and why I haven’t been my normal “fiery” self. It’s why
some most of my older blog posts have been taken down.
It’s because over these past four years, I’ve gotten it wrong. Now, ya’ll know- I keep it transparent with yall. I’ve tried and tried to type this post so many times, but it’s like— I just couldn’t get the words quite right. I don’t want to come off as bashing anybody, and I surely don’t want to throw the blame around. But, there is a hugeeeee elephant in the room & well… it’s time to talk about it. You see, as a new “believer” (Because I thought that I’d found Christ) on this day four years ago…. I got it so, very wrong. I say I “thought” I came to Christ, but in actuality I just started changing my behaviors because I thought that was what saved me. Over the years, that has led to me feeling like my works E A R N E D me my salvation, and because of that God deserved to do certain things for me. It also led to me feeling like I could “lose” my salvation when I messed up. My foundation and theology was ALL wrong. Over the past few months, I’ve been show just how wrong I had things. I want to share what I have learned, so that I clear up the misinformation that my old posts may have spread.
- The Bible is what we are to read and KNOW. Not someone else’s opinions or personal convictions. We live by God’s standards, not some humans. As a new “believer” I idolized people in “ministry,” and placed their ‘knowledge” over God’s Word. I shared a bit about this on my Instagram. We should N E V E R run to someone’s blog or youtube channel, more than we are running to the Bible. I literally idolized people, and cherished their thoughts on a certain topic over THE WORD OF GOD. In that, I also idolized their life & “formula.” I thought I “heard from God” on some stuff that was not….LOL! Looking back, I’ve made so many decisions in the name of “hearing from God,” that had nothing to do with “his plan.” It was more like hearing what I wanted to hear because I wanted the life I thought came with it.
- Because I choose not to do something, does not make me “better” or more “holy” than anybody else. My judgmental attitude SUCKED. aaaaaaaaand- Telling someone what they should and should not do (condemning) without presenting the Gospel is not effectively witnessing to anybody. In fact, it turns people away.
- Salvation is not through works, but by faith. Jesus died and that will forever be enough. My works are NOTHING. Believing that my works are what saved me, led me to feeling like I NEVER measured up. I felt as if I constantly had to EARN my salvation, and if I messed up— I wasn’t “saved” anymore. Once again, salvation is through Christ.. not works.
- My salvation comes from Christ. Not because I started following someone that told me to change my behaviors. Salvation is a heart transformation, not behavior modification. I stated in my testimony blog & video that I got saved, “when I started following someone on social media & stopped drinking, going to the club and having sex.” That was totally false. Those were all good things to stop doing, to live a Holy life…. however, I was saved when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior & repented of my sins.
- Christianity does NOT equal legalism. Attempting to follow all the “rules” that people throw out as “Biblical law” almost pushed me away from Christianity. I almost had a mental breakdown after reading about all of the things we “can’t” do because it traces back to something or was founded on something. Now, I’m not saying be uneducated, nor use this as an excuse to live any kind of way. But, what I am saying is that if YOU try to live by everybody else’s convictions- you WILL go crazy. If you pray about it, and YOU have peace.. just roll with it.
- Salvation is not the “missing piece” to your puzzle. You do not “come to Christ” and have a perfect life. We have to stop presenting salvation that way. Salvation does not equate material “blessings.” But, it does equates me NOT getting the punishment that my sins deserve. It equates my soul being saved.
- “Ministry” is not what happens on a stage or at a conference, but ministry is your everyday life. For so long, I have felt LESS than as a Christian, because my life was pretty simple. I don’t have a huge following, or do “full-time” ministry. Because, my life is my ministry. Whatever I do, I want God to be glorified in it. Nursing, is ministry. Being a wife, is ministry. You can still WORK a whole job, or go to college and “do ministry.” I say this, because sometimes it’s easy to feel like you need to have ALL this free time to do “ministry” when your coworkers need Jesus.
- Your “purpose” does not have to look the same as anybody else’s. YOU just be YOU. We all have something to do, and I can guarantee that we all don’t need to quit our current jobs to do it. We all don’t need to drop out of school and move to learn to “walk by faith.” Honestly, I have wasted so much time trying to make my “purpose” look a certain way. I could’ve been living my life this ENTIRE time, instead of trying to figure out a purpose! GO and MAKE disciples. = Everybody’s Purpose.
- Listen to your elders. I guarantee you that so many of the tough times and bad decisions that I made could have been avoided if I would have LISTENED to solid, wise counsel.
I’m sharing these things because I don’t want anyone to make the same mistakes that I made as a new “born again” believer. My best advice is to find a solid, Bible based church and get in the Word of God. If you have a mentor or ministry that you are a part of, please make sure that they teach THE GOSPEL. Nothing more & nothing less. We should test EVERY single thing we are taught against what the Scripture says. We are not to add, NOR subtract from that. I LOVE you all & I will definitely be back with an exciting update sooooon!
Until next time,
P.S- Scripture references:
God tells us in his word that We ALL have sinned, and that sin equals death. Romans 6:23
However, he loved us so much that he sent his only son to die for us. John 3:16, Romans 5:8-9
and that salvation comes through faith. Romans 10:8-10